" a whole pultan of people have come to the Lord just because of you " she said with her smile widening as it spread across her face with each word and then ended by lighting up her eyes...she seemed so proud of me for that one moment...oh and the moment i am talking about is the one i didn't even get to "choose" (not that i would have chosen any different) but yeah...it was my 'dedication to Christ' as a child...i wish i could do something myself, as in outta my own choice that would make her so happy...and bring about that exact same smile on her face...once atleast if not a tonne of times...phew!
seriously what wrong did i do in my life to deserve the 'occasional smile' (as occasional as once/twice a year) yeah i get, Ruth is better , does everything according to your liking, is going to actually BE someone in life and is serious about her career etc etc...and thats why all the international funds etc are saved for herrrr....whatever! what about me ey? i don't deserve it any less you know! ...and hey, my choices are as important as hers...they may not be the same, or the choices you'd make in my place, but they're mine, and i'm different, not you or her...to you and her maybe work,career and making it big is important but to me a good, stable family and an amazing husband and a happy life as a family is important...still as significant and asreasonable you know...so whatever my decision its still important and as meaningful...why don't you get that?
