Parenting

what does it feel like to be a 'parent'? you'd have to be the 'responsible' one? you'd have to know how to deal with the siblings, how to make rules, when to apply them and when to bend them. how to solve a crisis in a matter of minutes so that it doesn't leave the 'children's' faith in you broken or shattered...take them to doctors. tell them everything is going to turn out fine. plan holidays and then go around making 'the lists', and making sure that everything necessary is packed. running to and from travel agents, trying to make sure you get the best deal. making sure you never fight in front of the children. making sure theres food that every member of the family eats on the table. sorting out fights between members and invariably being painted black by the one whose side you do not take. try and not be partial to members. sort out 'my share-you share' issues. etc. these are just a FEW i named off the top of my head.....why you ask? ...coz though i'm just an 18 year old girl, i've had to get used to shouldering all the responsibility ever since i was 15! -_- when DO i get to be a kid? why did i have to grow up so fast? why can't i get some time to have my fun? :(

3 strikes and your out

hey, so there went another week....its a Sunday again today, and things ain't any better...not even a teeny-tiny bit...
its been going on for a week now but last night it got really bad! ...and guess how it started? on a small thing where he yelled at all of us for no reason at all and then denied when i just nicely asked him not to yell! like whoa! hold on a minute, its not like only i said you yelled, all of thought you did...even the maid...and she doesn't take sides...c'mon!
...but yeah, in short....thanks for showing me again the place/standing i have in your life with your words, and i quote... 'yeah i'm all wrong from the soles of my feet to my head, Esther why don't you engineer my leaving the house again"
thanks so much. i think its time you know that you lost me lastnight for the 3rd time and that is to be the last. goodbye.