Thursday, April 9, 2009

a day...today!

so i haven't written in ages...stop looking at me with those questioning eyes, sorry dude! ..had final exams, and nearing the end of them i decided that i had to put my all into them or else...or else i would be the 'looser' my sister keeps calling me...and i had to prove her wrong! what with the seeds of peace thing and all...i just HAD TO...i'm sure you get it...phew! ...now the exams are over, so i guess nothing ,much can be done there so well..what else now..?? trying to think of other ways to prove i ain't any 'looser' and that yeah well heyy...!¡ ...i could do with a few 'opportunities' and 'chances' being thrown my way too yah know...!

....moving on, moving on...well it's 1.49am here in India, and well i should actually be fast asleep, given the past 2 weeks that i've had just about a maximum of 3-4hours of sleep a day cause otherwise i'v been frantically studying for one exam or the other, or taking care of mum....but heyy no! ...just when i need the sleep it won't come! ...it decides to stay away and have a little bit of it's own fun...keep me up all night, restless, without much to do, vacant DARK rooms and thoughts, scary noises from the almost emty roads below and a cold breeze blowing through a big window and a very very bright moon! ...perfect day for a mystery...ok ok i need to stop thinking all this mystry stuff cause i'm spooked already and i'm only making it worse for myself this way..."you got no-body to cuddle up with girl...what are you trying to do?" seriously man,way to go Es! *sigh*

...can't sleep
can't sleep....
....can't sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep...! :(
...i'm restless and whiney and in a horrid mood, not very socialable and...not happy...just very grumpy and tired with a bad headache and sleeeeeepy tired eyes, that won't freaking close no matter how hard i've tried to close them....argh! ...and vacant thoughts that don't seem to know or make up their minds what to think about or worry about in particular which is driving me insaaaaaaaaaaane... :( it's much easier when you've got just one thing on your mind and worry about just that rather than having 'lots' on your mind but nothing in particular cause you freaking can't seem to pin-point whats bothering you the most or what you should be bothering about the most etc etc...i'm sure you get the gist of what i'm rambling on about... *siiiiiiiiiiiiigh*

aaaaaaaaaaaaaanyways....its 2.03am now, i should really get moving and find something more interesting to do with these 'xtra' hours of my life so that hopefully i could teach sleep a good lesson! pah¡

>_<

~ Me ~

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