Lie upon lie,
Tears are cried,
The truth to hide
So that mother won't chide.
Eventually she finds out,
And then takes us aside,
Warns us no man wants a bride,
Who to her mother has always lied.
That night in bed we cry,
And with a sigh,
Promise to say bye,
To ever saying a lie,
Till the day we die.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Perfect Sin
Perfect sin
By Esther
In the blowing wind
Your body in that uniform
Looked like perfect sin
And to this very day
In this relationship
I can't believe we're so far in
When you were around,
It was so hard to breathe,
So I looked away,
To keep my feet on solid ground,
But your presence in the place,
Was so hard not to heed.
I didn't want to love you,
But I did,
And those feelings I tried to keep hid.
Your face each night I'd try to forget,
Each moment from the time we met,
But with your charm
My appetite for you,you did whet
And in my heart your home,
You'd already permanently set.
I couldn't understand why,
Like other girls you didn't just pass me by
And instead you asked me to join you,
Up in the sky.
You were free and going easy,
I was awkward, naive and queasy,
And yet you looked at me,
And said with me, you forever wanted to be!
By Esther
In the blowing wind
Your body in that uniform
Looked like perfect sin
And to this very day
In this relationship
I can't believe we're so far in
When you were around,
It was so hard to breathe,
So I looked away,
To keep my feet on solid ground,
But your presence in the place,
Was so hard not to heed.
I didn't want to love you,
But I did,
And those feelings I tried to keep hid.
Your face each night I'd try to forget,
Each moment from the time we met,
But with your charm
My appetite for you,you did whet
And in my heart your home,
You'd already permanently set.
I couldn't understand why,
Like other girls you didn't just pass me by
And instead you asked me to join you,
Up in the sky.
You were free and going easy,
I was awkward, naive and queasy,
And yet you looked at me,
And said with me, you forever wanted to be!
Friday, January 21, 2011
poems, if i may say so? :P
listen to the whisper of the blowing wind,
telling me what a fool i've been,
for ever giving you a chance to think,
that i would ever do anything,
to make this relationship sink.
my hun,
thank you for jumping the gun,
coz with that my heart you have won,
and with ou i want to share every moment under the sun.
love is never easy,
and pain doesn't go with a hug that's squeezy,
but knowing i have you by my side,
make all of it seem so breezy.
arguments, fights and misunderstandings are normal,
after all, we're all hormonal,
but thank god for you,
coz you help me think straight,
and correct me before its too late,
i think your my perfect mate!
-Esther
telling me what a fool i've been,
for ever giving you a chance to think,
that i would ever do anything,
to make this relationship sink.
my hun,
thank you for jumping the gun,
coz with that my heart you have won,
and with ou i want to share every moment under the sun.
love is never easy,
and pain doesn't go with a hug that's squeezy,
but knowing i have you by my side,
make all of it seem so breezy.
arguments, fights and misunderstandings are normal,
after all, we're all hormonal,
but thank god for you,
coz you help me think straight,
and correct me before its too late,
i think your my perfect mate!
-Esther
Monday, January 17, 2011
ouch!
When with your words your curt,
It really does hurt.
So to your old ways of talking to me,
Please do revert.
When you used every sentence,
To flirt
And our conversations were filled with,
Joy and mirth.
-Esther
It really does hurt.
So to your old ways of talking to me,
Please do revert.
When you used every sentence,
To flirt
And our conversations were filled with,
Joy and mirth.
-Esther
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Whiplash!
Your tongue,
as sharp as a whip.
Those words,
no, saying them doesn't make you sound hip.
that handwash there,
of that you should take a sip.
or stick your tongue out,
gimme scissors and let me clip.
No? Fine then your lips you better zip,
sit down, breathe and get a grip.
For every little thing theres no need to flip,
that there was a kind tip,
here,
take a cooling sip,
and please promise,
you'll think again before you let your tongue slip
and your mouth rip!
-by Me
as sharp as a whip.
Those words,
no, saying them doesn't make you sound hip.
that handwash there,
of that you should take a sip.
or stick your tongue out,
gimme scissors and let me clip.
No? Fine then your lips you better zip,
sit down, breathe and get a grip.
For every little thing theres no need to flip,
that there was a kind tip,
here,
take a cooling sip,
and please promise,
you'll think again before you let your tongue slip
and your mouth rip!
-by Me
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Parenting
what does it feel like to be a 'parent'? you'd have to be the 'responsible' one? you'd have to know how to deal with the siblings, how to make rules, when to apply them and when to bend them. how to solve a crisis in a matter of minutes so that it doesn't leave the 'children's' faith in you broken or shattered...take them to doctors. tell them everything is going to turn out fine. plan holidays and then go around making 'the lists', and making sure that everything necessary is packed. running to and from travel agents, trying to make sure you get the best deal. making sure you never fight in front of the children. making sure theres food that every member of the family eats on the table. sorting out fights between members and invariably being painted black by the one whose side you do not take. try and not be partial to members. sort out 'my share-you share' issues. etc. these are just a FEW i named off the top of my head.....why you ask? ...coz though i'm just an 18 year old girl, i've had to get used to shouldering all the responsibility ever since i was 15! -_- when DO i get to be a kid? why did i have to grow up so fast? why can't i get some time to have my fun? :(
Sunday, December 5, 2010
3 strikes and your out
hey, so there went another week....its a Sunday again today, and things ain't any better...not even a teeny-tiny bit...
its been going on for a week now but last night it got really bad! ...and guess how it started? on a small thing where he yelled at all of us for no reason at all and then denied when i just nicely asked him not to yell! like whoa! hold on a minute, its not like only i said you yelled, all of thought you did...even the maid...and she doesn't take sides...c'mon!
...but yeah, in short....thanks for showing me again the place/standing i have in your life with your words, and i quote... 'yeah i'm all wrong from the soles of my feet to my head, Esther why don't you engineer my leaving the house again"
thanks so much. i think its time you know that you lost me lastnight for the 3rd time and that is to be the last. goodbye.
its been going on for a week now but last night it got really bad! ...and guess how it started? on a small thing where he yelled at all of us for no reason at all and then denied when i just nicely asked him not to yell! like whoa! hold on a minute, its not like only i said you yelled, all of thought you did...even the maid...and she doesn't take sides...c'mon!
...but yeah, in short....thanks for showing me again the place/standing i have in your life with your words, and i quote... 'yeah i'm all wrong from the soles of my feet to my head, Esther why don't you engineer my leaving the house again"
thanks so much. i think its time you know that you lost me lastnight for the 3rd time and that is to be the last. goodbye.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
I owe you everything
an excerpt from a random poem
"There were nights where I was sure
I wouldn't see the morning sun
And there were days that seemed so dark
I couldn't wait for night to come
I couldn't stand to think about how
My life used to be
And how without a single warning
It all slipped away from me
Like a fool I thought I could fight
The shadows on my own
To the dark I was no stranger
But this was stronger than I'd known
And by the time I knew that I was in too deep I'd gone too far
And the light that used to guide me
Had faded from my heart
And I found myself in places I thought I'd never go
Surrounded by strangers I was so far from home
And I don't know how you found me
All I know is I owe everything to you
Yes I do"
"There were nights where I was sure
I wouldn't see the morning sun
And there were days that seemed so dark
I couldn't wait for night to come
I couldn't stand to think about how
My life used to be
And how without a single warning
It all slipped away from me
Like a fool I thought I could fight
The shadows on my own
To the dark I was no stranger
But this was stronger than I'd known
And by the time I knew that I was in too deep I'd gone too far
And the light that used to guide me
Had faded from my heart
And I found myself in places I thought I'd never go
Surrounded by strangers I was so far from home
And I don't know how you found me
All I know is I owe everything to you
Yes I do"
Returnings
so its been ages since i wrote, my sincere apologies...alot has been happening since the last time i wrote. for starters, dad has moved back in with us after 2 and a half years. yes i should be jumping for joy, smiling, dancing, rejoicing and other such things right? yeah, so i know...buuut...the thing is...i ain't! not one bit! atleast not truly or for myself...yes seeing mum happy to have her husband back in some sorta way is good, to see Ruth have someone to kinda help her in her studies, take her side during fights or indulge her is good...but truthfully, and for myself..nope! i ain't happy! not a teeny tiny wee bit! :( i don't understand why either...instead of laughing and having fun, i find myself crying,ending up in fights and taking on even more responsibilities than ever...stiiiill...wasn't i the kid? wasn't i the one who lost out on a childhood coz of...having to shoulder a whole bunch of responsibilities before i...anyone was ever meant to?! pheeeeew! so what was the deal here ey? he promised to take care of me, look out for me,be there for me...but nothing of that sort is happening...at all! instead i find myself being lumped with tonnes of extra shit that i can't cope with, which is messing me up badly...ended p giving me freaking swollen ovaries and a whole tonne of other stuff thats waaaaay too depressing to go over! i hate being fat, but oh no, thats going to be me now coz of the swollen ovaries! ....besides the tonnes of other stuff...sometimes i feel like getting up and walking straight out. yes, like out out. and never returning again. the only reason i'm still sticking around is my mother dear. i love her to bits abd she tries so hard to do her best and help me feel better, and do appreciate that immensely and i am sooooooo grateful to her for that...but...the thing is...HE's gotta do some things too y'know..it can't be JUST mom...why else is he back otherwise? ...to be the same man he was before he left? ...to fail to come forth and deliver on any of his promises? ...to try his best to guilt trip us for something we never brought on? ...to hopefully get us to pity him and give in to all his demands and expectations? hell no! that wasn't happenin'...! oh no! never! not even close to it! he had soooooo much to do before i atleast came anywhere near forgiving him for what he did and how he left and the way he behaved even after he's been back...right up till NOW! :(
.....so as i end this, i'd say, never ever have expectations, its the best that way...coz then there ain't no pain when people don't live upto some you might have had...and when you don't have expectations, if the person exceeds any you might have had...well the joy is double...but if he/she fails...atleast there ain't any pain coz you never had expectations in the first place...so yeah, thats the way i'd go if i could do this again....
.....so as i end this, i'd say, never ever have expectations, its the best that way...coz then there ain't no pain when people don't live upto some you might have had...and when you don't have expectations, if the person exceeds any you might have had...well the joy is double...but if he/she fails...atleast there ain't any pain coz you never had expectations in the first place...so yeah, thats the way i'd go if i could do this again....
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
oh that smile!
" a whole pultan of people have come to the Lord just because of you " she said with her smile widening as it spread across her face with each word and then ended by lighting up her eyes...she seemed so proud of me for that one moment...oh and the moment i am talking about is the one i didn't even get to "choose" (not that i would have chosen any different) but yeah...it was my 'dedication to Christ' as a child...i wish i could do something myself, as in outta my own choice that would make her so happy...and bring about that exact same smile on her face...once atleast if not a tonne of times...phew!
seriously what wrong did i do in my life to deserve the 'occasional smile' (as occasional as once/twice a year) yeah i get, Ruth is better , does everything according to your liking, is going to actually BE someone in life and is serious about her career etc etc...and thats why all the international funds etc are saved for herrrr....whatever! what about me ey? i don't deserve it any less you know! ...and hey, my choices are as important as hers...they may not be the same, or the choices you'd make in my place, but they're mine, and i'm different, not you or her...to you and her maybe work,career and making it big is important but to me a good, stable family and an amazing husband and a happy life as a family is important...still as significant and asreasonable you know...so whatever my decision its still important and as meaningful...why don't you get that?
seriously what wrong did i do in my life to deserve the 'occasional smile' (as occasional as once/twice a year) yeah i get, Ruth is better , does everything according to your liking, is going to actually BE someone in life and is serious about her career etc etc...and thats why all the international funds etc are saved for herrrr....whatever! what about me ey? i don't deserve it any less you know! ...and hey, my choices are as important as hers...they may not be the same, or the choices you'd make in my place, but they're mine, and i'm different, not you or her...to you and her maybe work,career and making it big is important but to me a good, stable family and an amazing husband and a happy life as a family is important...still as significant and asreasonable you know...so whatever my decision its still important and as meaningful...why don't you get that?
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Mulling over things
......argh! why can't i stop? honestly i need none of this right now, just peace and calm...so that...i hopefully pass my bloody, damn finals in a few weeks time...
can't seem to find a way of NOT mulling over absolute rubbish! :(
can't seem to find a way of NOT mulling over absolute rubbish! :(
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Happy New Year! NOT!
1st of all...Happy New Year one and all...okay so i'm in this awful mood, which i know you have guessed already...boo-yah!
basically times are okay, not as physically draining as they are emotionally :( having a few tough times here and there...can't seem to cope too well...and i thought turning eighteen earlier this month would have hopefully made a whole tonne of things easier and well...would have given me much more to look forward to...apparently...NOT!! ....so well...theres the first pitfall :(
anyways i'd let you in on more sad stories of my current living position but i feel like i need to get some good rest now...haven't been keeping too well either...and well...at the moment... I'M MIND-FUCKED...!!! MAJORLY...!!! :(
basically times are okay, not as physically draining as they are emotionally :( having a few tough times here and there...can't seem to cope too well...and i thought turning eighteen earlier this month would have hopefully made a whole tonne of things easier and well...would have given me much more to look forward to...apparently...NOT!! ....so well...theres the first pitfall :(
anyways i'd let you in on more sad stories of my current living position but i feel like i need to get some good rest now...haven't been keeping too well either...and well...at the moment... I'M MIND-FUCKED...!!! MAJORLY...!!! :(
Monday, August 24, 2009
another crazy month...
hey...so its been an awfully long time, and well..as you can guess...too much has happened in between...
...lets see...
1st of all 'we' broke-up and he threw a BIG tantrum...eventually taking back his words as always and coming back to me...for our 3rd year anni! yah really! ..for which i got gifted a sexy new asus p320 cell phone,complete with microsoft excel, microsoft word, touch-screen, wi-fi...the works...and then 3 surprise cards handed over to me in person by my bestfriend on the real day when he was away and at the time i least expected..yeah well....whatever!!!!!
...next comes...well this group from Britain, London...same thing...a group of 10 of them,from which i've made amazing new friends with around 7-8 of 'em after having mentoring and hosting them for college...and hangin' out etc...it's been an honour and a joy! :) they are most definately gonna be immensely missed...specially 2 people! ;)
...and then lastly i haven't been keepin' too well...taking anti-biotics, multi-vitamins and minerals etc but not much better, the medical tests done every few months show the same results, no improvement and a very VERY low immunity system....i had the viral flu for 3weeks straight!!!! ...it just wouldn't leave me! ...yeah it is scary at times...but it has to be dealt with...and you have to go on..so here i am...
...anyways theres a whole looooooots more, but i've got lots to catch up on with studies now, so i gotta get goin'...i'll update a whole lot more often i promise..
till then... *luv*
me, as always.... =)
...lets see...
1st of all 'we' broke-up and he threw a BIG tantrum...eventually taking back his words as always and coming back to me...for our 3rd year anni! yah really! ..for which i got gifted a sexy new asus p320 cell phone,complete with microsoft excel, microsoft word, touch-screen, wi-fi...the works...and then 3 surprise cards handed over to me in person by my bestfriend on the real day when he was away and at the time i least expected..yeah well....whatever!!!!!
...next comes...well this group from Britain, London...same thing...a group of 10 of them,from which i've made amazing new friends with around 7-8 of 'em after having mentoring and hosting them for college...and hangin' out etc...it's been an honour and a joy! :) they are most definately gonna be immensely missed...specially 2 people! ;)
...and then lastly i haven't been keepin' too well...taking anti-biotics, multi-vitamins and minerals etc but not much better, the medical tests done every few months show the same results, no improvement and a very VERY low immunity system....i had the viral flu for 3weeks straight!!!! ...it just wouldn't leave me! ...yeah it is scary at times...but it has to be dealt with...and you have to go on..so here i am...
...anyways theres a whole looooooots more, but i've got lots to catch up on with studies now, so i gotta get goin'...i'll update a whole lot more often i promise..
till then... *luv*
me, as always.... =)
Saturday, June 13, 2009
...*siiiiiigh*
...so i've been goin' craaaaaaaazy alot lately...specially with a supposedly brilliant sister whose off to 'seeds of peace international camp, maine' in just about a week...oh yeah she's the genius after all...and i'm the dim-wit! ...everyone seems to believe that now, even my own mother except myself...but as the days go on...i am starting to accept it myself...i guess i'm just meant to live the 'cinder' part of life from the 'cinderella' story... *sigh*
...on another note, i'm just done with my best-friends 'chart-card' that i took sooooooo much trouble over since she is turning the BIG 1-8 EIGHTEEN in 3 mnths! ...oh'kay i'll let you have a look...but at the end of this post 'kay...? ...patience young-one...old one...everyone!
...oh you bloody heat! yeah i know you love watching me sweat and get frustrated as the days grow long but can't you just grow-up and make a move...i'm sure there are tonnes of other places you wanna visit and people you wanna torture and sadistically enjoy as they melt in your 'glare'...move on!...i know i have....
...so whats more? ...well nuin much here either...living life...tryin' to atleast though i ain't successful everytime and everyway...we all fall down...humans...and imperfection...what a piss off!
...i'm hot...and tired...and my head hurts...so i'm off to bed now at this unbelievably early hour...its just 1.30am!
g'nyt!
Thursday, June 4, 2009
..am i the only one who feels this way? why?
you called me 'mah angel' today...tonight! ...what was that about??? suddenly??? outa nowhere???
i'm stunned....and perplexed! what are you aiming at? want something? ...or are you bloody finally realising my worth...??? what is it...???!
...again your off to bed...dream on...you asked me for something and i obeyed immediately...go have a look, you'll see....
i can't sleep, you know the reason why already, and un-fairly ( i know that ain't much of a word, thanks for the correction, but its just how i wanna say it...heard of poetic license? boo!)...unfairly enough you sleep on blissfully not knowing or even seeming to half care about how i feel here while i toss and turn all night in bed...anyways get on with it...thats the best way you can be now anyways.....who knows otherwise if you were awake and here right now you could have been 'causing me alot more hurt or accusing me of something or making me cry, coz recently you've been doin' alot of THAT lately :(
...sometimes i feel like this relationship is getting to be more and more of a ritual of some kind or just an idea we're used to or something like that...not like a real one anymore...feels like i'm on a job here to just make you and keep you happy by complying to your every demand and doin' as you ask of me or tell me to do etc...sucks actually...and i'm tryin' hard to think and figure out a way to get back the old feel to this relationship while i stay up at night...but i feel like i'm doin' all i can and my bit...but your lacking somewhere...and if i tell you so you ain't gonna take it nicely, you'll either blow up or pin it all on me again eventually so i'm just gonna let it slide, keep you happy with whatever you want till i myself find a way or something i can do myself to make this better..........sometimes its like your so into yourself your completely blind to me,my needs or wants or how i'm feeling or need to be treated, you know something? till now you have no clue what to say to me or how to deal with me when i'm upset about family or friends ever, your only words are 'chill' and 'forget it' ..and then you change topic and act like it never happended or like i'm perfectly fine...hurts more than you know.... :(
..anyways like i said earlier, what you asked me to do, i've done...so my 'job' is done now...hope your happy with it and how i've done it and hopefully this time have nothing to yell at me or find fault with it or me about...i'm goin' to head off to bed now and continue the torture and thinking process to find a solution to 'get back the spark'..!
Sweetdream on my so called "JAAN"
i'm stunned....and perplexed! what are you aiming at? want something? ...or are you bloody finally realising my worth...??? what is it...???!
...again your off to bed...dream on...you asked me for something and i obeyed immediately...go have a look, you'll see....
i can't sleep, you know the reason why already, and un-fairly ( i know that ain't much of a word, thanks for the correction, but its just how i wanna say it...heard of poetic license? boo!)...unfairly enough you sleep on blissfully not knowing or even seeming to half care about how i feel here while i toss and turn all night in bed...anyways get on with it...thats the best way you can be now anyways.....who knows otherwise if you were awake and here right now you could have been 'causing me alot more hurt or accusing me of something or making me cry, coz recently you've been doin' alot of THAT lately :(
...sometimes i feel like this relationship is getting to be more and more of a ritual of some kind or just an idea we're used to or something like that...not like a real one anymore...feels like i'm on a job here to just make you and keep you happy by complying to your every demand and doin' as you ask of me or tell me to do etc...sucks actually...and i'm tryin' hard to think and figure out a way to get back the old feel to this relationship while i stay up at night...but i feel like i'm doin' all i can and my bit...but your lacking somewhere...and if i tell you so you ain't gonna take it nicely, you'll either blow up or pin it all on me again eventually so i'm just gonna let it slide, keep you happy with whatever you want till i myself find a way or something i can do myself to make this better..........sometimes its like your so into yourself your completely blind to me,my needs or wants or how i'm feeling or need to be treated, you know something? till now you have no clue what to say to me or how to deal with me when i'm upset about family or friends ever, your only words are 'chill' and 'forget it' ..and then you change topic and act like it never happended or like i'm perfectly fine...hurts more than you know.... :(
..anyways like i said earlier, what you asked me to do, i've done...so my 'job' is done now...hope your happy with it and how i've done it and hopefully this time have nothing to yell at me or find fault with it or me about...i'm goin' to head off to bed now and continue the torture and thinking process to find a solution to 'get back the spark'..!
Sweetdream on my so called "JAAN"
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
...while you lay fast asleep...
while you lay fast asleep..i recounted today and how its made me feel...
and truthfully...this is it..
....so at the moment i'm rather miffed with you, yet you've managed to get me apologising to you for wrongs that you claim i've done that actually and truthfully don't exist at all...! ...look you kno what would be a whole lot better Mr? ...if you were just honest with yourself,and agreed that what waas actually bothering you wasn't really me or the wrong things i hadn't done but your own family and the wrongs they have done...! ...that would be much much better..that way instead of me backing away from you, you'd have me come forward and try and ease the pressure on you to do right and expectations from you, or if not that, atleast listen to you patiently and help you relax and cool down and take your mind of that stressful stuff...in some way or the other...but no! instead you stupidly enough go around choosing the dumbest possible option of yellin' at me, pushing me away as well by blaming for stuff that doesn't exist which results in you isolating yourself and having more time to worry yourself thinking of how people have 'let you down' or how bad things are for you etc instead of lettin' me help pick you and your mood up! ...gawd! your sooooo darn kiddish sometimes...! Grow-up!
...anyways its only 'cause i bloody love you and hence know you so damn well and know what to expect from you and how to treat you when you react this way am i still around and dealing with it all and still sticking by you right through it all...and even got myself to tell you to do whatever you think is best for your family...even if it meant leving me out in the end after i've done so fucking much..!
anyways hope you keep sleepn' oblivious to how i feel right now and often more times...'cause otherwise it would just lead to another mess...and i can't take any more of 'em now..i've got enough already...with mum, ruth and now you and your mood swings, blame-games and what-nots...!
:(
sweetdream on!
and truthfully...this is it..
....so at the moment i'm rather miffed with you, yet you've managed to get me apologising to you for wrongs that you claim i've done that actually and truthfully don't exist at all...! ...look you kno what would be a whole lot better Mr? ...if you were just honest with yourself,and agreed that what waas actually bothering you wasn't really me or the wrong things i hadn't done but your own family and the wrongs they have done...! ...that would be much much better..that way instead of me backing away from you, you'd have me come forward and try and ease the pressure on you to do right and expectations from you, or if not that, atleast listen to you patiently and help you relax and cool down and take your mind of that stressful stuff...in some way or the other...but no! instead you stupidly enough go around choosing the dumbest possible option of yellin' at me, pushing me away as well by blaming for stuff that doesn't exist which results in you isolating yourself and having more time to worry yourself thinking of how people have 'let you down' or how bad things are for you etc instead of lettin' me help pick you and your mood up! ...gawd! your sooooo darn kiddish sometimes...! Grow-up!
...anyways its only 'cause i bloody love you and hence know you so damn well and know what to expect from you and how to treat you when you react this way am i still around and dealing with it all and still sticking by you right through it all...and even got myself to tell you to do whatever you think is best for your family...even if it meant leving me out in the end after i've done so fucking much..!
anyways hope you keep sleepn' oblivious to how i feel right now and often more times...'cause otherwise it would just lead to another mess...and i can't take any more of 'em now..i've got enough already...with mum, ruth and now you and your mood swings, blame-games and what-nots...!
:(
sweetdream on!
Friday, May 29, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
...first there was smoke...
then sparks flew...
before it became a full-on raging fire...!
oh chill it! i'm jus talking about the before-bed arguument/fight that mum and lil miss 'vada pao' had...well i can't blame either of them entirely...each had their own faults and could have in their own way dealt with the situation better...but instead chose...well...the 'no very nice way'...so yeah sadly and obviously enough it ended in a way no-one really intended it to...so here we are, with mum sleepin' on my bed...and well...me out here writing this....oh well! *sigh*
....tired-ness is makin' that few centimetres of bed-space left on my bed even more comfortable lookin' than its goin' to be and that air-conditioner beckons me into the clasps of the room just past the doors to my right....i can't hold back any longer...i've got to turn myself in...the reward is too irrestable to let go....aaaaah....
GOOdniiiiiihtttt....... *dissappears behind the doors*
then sparks flew...
before it became a full-on raging fire...!
oh chill it! i'm jus talking about the before-bed arguument/fight that mum and lil miss 'vada pao' had...well i can't blame either of them entirely...each had their own faults and could have in their own way dealt with the situation better...but instead chose...well...the 'no very nice way'...so yeah sadly and obviously enough it ended in a way no-one really intended it to...so here we are, with mum sleepin' on my bed...and well...me out here writing this....oh well! *sigh*
....tired-ness is makin' that few centimetres of bed-space left on my bed even more comfortable lookin' than its goin' to be and that air-conditioner beckons me into the clasps of the room just past the doors to my right....i can't hold back any longer...i've got to turn myself in...the reward is too irrestable to let go....aaaaah....
GOOdniiiiiihtttt....... *dissappears behind the doors*
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
....its finally 7:30am and i'm FINALLY heading to bed!!! yeah finally....
oooh don't ask me what i've been upto all along....coz i've been naughty! ...and i loved every moment of it! ...that was fucking amazing... ;)
details??? your asking for details...oh sweetheart you've just got to dream them up yourself...i'm not, this one ain't tellin' nuin... :P hehehehehe!
*winkies*
^_^
oooh don't ask me what i've been upto all along....coz i've been naughty! ...and i loved every moment of it! ...that was fucking amazing... ;)
details??? your asking for details...oh sweetheart you've just got to dream them up yourself...i'm not, this one ain't tellin' nuin... :P hehehehehe!
*winkies*
^_^
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